Sounds like you had some bad times softcell62. Glad to hear that is all behind you & you've found some happiness. I agree music is a healer & no matter what you go through in life there is a song or piece of music that relates to our feelings.
I killed all my family with an axe for criticising my drumming, so I'd like to thank the male nurse in Broadmoor who introduced me to the bass, it got me through 20 years of living hell. I'm ok now though, no more anger issues, I just take everyday as it comes, still struggle with criticism though
Most people in this thread have a good family or friends support system & I'm another that has that support. I don't always need it but it's nice to know it's there.